a synonym for rotting

i am giving myself permission to wallow in my grief and confusion. i would call this rotting but rotting is usually pleasant for me so it’s not really hitting the same. so to be clear, i’m giving myself permission to:

• decay

• decompose

• disintegrate

• crumble

• become rotten

• corrode

• perish

• go bad

• go off

• spoil

• go sour

• molder

• go moldy

• taint

• putrefy

• fester

• become gangrenous

• mortify

• necrose

• sphacelate

• deteriorate

• degenerate

• decline

• decay

• fall into decay

• go to rack and ruin

• become dilapidated

• go to seed

• go downhill

• languish

• molder

• go to pot

• go to the dogs

• go down the toilet

i have so many things to do. but not today. today is for heartbreak.